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Slit my wrists
or pace the floor
another hundred times,
then a thousand more.
Like a switch,
I can turn me off.
I don't need control.
I don't need control.
What I wish
is for a cure.
For seven days.
For seven more.
I don't want to die in a hospital.
Can I feel?
Can I sleep?
Will I wake up?
Is this real?
Pain is fast.
Hurry up.
Please slow down.
It's too much.
Don't let me die in a hospital.
Don't let me die...
In time, all things heal in time.
In time...
it flies by, you'll see.
Please miss me.
No.
Don't miss me.
And these words.
Only ink
on a page.
Only ink.
Where are we?
Just on dirt.
Will this hurt?
Don't wanna go.
I'm not gonna die in a hospital.
Please, let me go, please let me go, please let me go.
I'm not gonna die in a hospital.
Please let me go, please let me go, please let me go.
I'm not gonna die, don't wanna go.
Please let me go, please let me go, please...
please know I loved you.
or pace the floor
another hundred times,
then a thousand more.
Like a switch,
I can turn me off.
I don't need control.
I don't need control.
What I wish
is for a cure.
For seven days.
For seven more.
I don't want to die in a hospital.
Can I feel?
Can I sleep?
Will I wake up?
Is this real?
Pain is fast.
Hurry up.
Please slow down.
It's too much.
Don't let me die in a hospital.
Don't let me die...
In time, all things heal in time.
In time...
it flies by, you'll see.
Please miss me.
No.
Don't miss me.
And these words.
Only ink
on a page.
Only ink.
Where are we?
Just on dirt.
Will this hurt?
Don't wanna go.
I'm not gonna die in a hospital.
Please, let me go, please let me go, please let me go.
I'm not gonna die in a hospital.
Please let me go, please let me go, please let me go.
I'm not gonna die, don't wanna go.
Please let me go, please let me go, please...
please know I loved you.
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I had a dream this morning that I was given two days to live. It was really, really vivid, and I just...couldn't process it. I couldn't at all.
Given my suicidal tendencies, and occasional reliance on tobacco to calm my nerves (looking into proper meds, though), it was incredibly strange, so I wrote this song.
The speaker in the song is in his house alone after being told by his doctor that he has 36 hours to live. I added the period, because it seems awkward. Sudden. Still, it seems very final, almost ominous.
I don't know why, but this gets to me. I was sobbing while I wrote it, and absolutely bawling when trying to sing it. Even reading it gets to me. So strange.
It isn't even a particularly novel idea with me. I've played with it in writing before. And the melody isn't exactly uncommon. It's so, so frighteningly simple. I just can't get over that.
The background for this is really just a few light chords played on every beat: dun-dun-dun-dun, [new chord] dun-dun-dun-dun. The motion for it is bouncy, but tame, like your hand is trying to bounce a tennis ball, but only from four inches off the ground. Think the opening chords of "Fidelity" by Regina Spektor.
Hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
Copyright and related rights waived via CC0
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I had a dream this morning that I was given two days to live. It was really, really vivid, and I just...couldn't process it. I couldn't at all.
Given my suicidal tendencies, and occasional reliance on tobacco to calm my nerves (looking into proper meds, though), it was incredibly strange, so I wrote this song.
The speaker in the song is in his house alone after being told by his doctor that he has 36 hours to live. I added the period, because it seems awkward. Sudden. Still, it seems very final, almost ominous.
I don't know why, but this gets to me. I was sobbing while I wrote it, and absolutely bawling when trying to sing it. Even reading it gets to me. So strange.
It isn't even a particularly novel idea with me. I've played with it in writing before. And the melody isn't exactly uncommon. It's so, so frighteningly simple. I just can't get over that.
The background for this is really just a few light chords played on every beat: dun-dun-dun-dun, [new chord] dun-dun-dun-dun. The motion for it is bouncy, but tame, like your hand is trying to bounce a tennis ball, but only from four inches off the ground. Think the opening chords of "Fidelity" by Regina Spektor.
Hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
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Man this one really hits home great poem